Jessica, Sophie and Thomas at the same age as each other

Overtaking and overturning – another milestone on our child loss journey

Today Thomas has reached the age that Jessica was when she died. From tomorrow, my first-born child will become the youngest. The natural order of things will be turned on…

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Friday Focus 28/02/2025 – Emotional

This week has been an emotional one. There’s been moments of joy and things that have made me smile, alongside intense grief-bursts and feeling stressed and angry, moments of feeling…

The word 'balance' on a seesaw

Friday Focus 21/02/2025 – Balance

We’ve been on half-term break this week and it’s been a nice balance of planned days out, chilled out time at home, visiting family and friends and low-key activities like…

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Meeting my younger self for coffee

I went to meet my younger self for coffee but couldn’t go in. Instead I hovered outside, just out of sight and peeped in on her, drinking in the sight…

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Friday Focus 14/02/2025 – Unwellness

It’s been another week of unwellness in the LHBL house. I had a nasty attack of vertigo on Friday which knocked me out of action for the day as I…

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Friday Focus 07/02/2025 – Disappointed

We’re feeling quite disappointed this week thanks to the timing of round two of chickenpox hitting the LHBL house. I didn’t think we’d escape it with Thomas, but I was…

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Friday Focus 31/01/2025 – Space

It’s been nice to have some space for myself this week with Sophie back at school again after being home with chickenpox last week. Thomas hasn’t yet come down with…

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Friday Focus 24/01/2025 – Chickenpox

Chickenpox has struck the LHBL house this week with Sophie being unwell at the start of the week and then coming out in spots on Wednesday. So far Thomas is…

The words 'up-and-down' in wriggly bubble writing

Friday Focus 17/01/2025 – Up-and-down

It’s been an up-and-down week with some lovely moments of family time and some good news along with a few struggles with various things and challenges to deal with.  …

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Friday Focus 10/01/2025 – Normality

The Christmas decorations have been taken down and packed away and it’s back to normality again with Sophie and Thomas being back at school this week and getting back to…