Baby Thomas wrapped in a towel

Thomas’s birth story: a planned home breech birth

I was woken by the sudden gush of fluid as my waters broke. It was 2:46am – the time that Jessica had died. It felt significant that they had broken…

A babygro, hat, bootees and Scrabble letters spelling out "thirty six weeks"

Pregnancy after child loss – 36 weeks

We’ve been preparing a little more for Peanut’s imminent arrival over the last couple of weeks. There’s now space in our bedroom for the Moses basket and we’ve been busy…

A scan photo with letters spelling "thirty four weeks" plus a baby hat and baby boottees

Pregnancy after child loss – 34 weeks

The realisation that we are getting closer and closer to Peanut’s arrival has well and truly hit now. I still feel a very long way off being ready for Peanut’s…

A silhouette of a pregnant woman gazing out of a window

Losing an older child while pregnant with another baby – the emotional rollercoaster

One of the things that I find hard about having to cope with grieving for Jessica while being pregnant with Peanut is the lack of information and support for women…

A scan picture of Peanut at 32 weeks

Pregnancy after child loss – 32 weeks

I’ve now hit the point in my pregnancy when it has suddenly dawned on me that we really are about to have another baby – and how soon that moment…

A scan photo surrounded by hearts, teddy bears and Scrabble letters spelling out "third trimester"

Pregnancy after child loss – into the third trimester

I can’t quite believe that I’m now firmly into the third trimester of this pregnancy. Physically, the second trimester was a fairly easy one. Emotionally it has been the hardest…

A scan photo of Peanut from the 20-week scan

Halfway through: 20 weeks pregnant

I can’t quite believe I’m already at the halfway point with this pregnancy. The weeks seem to be going by very quickly. I’m now at the stage where I’m enjoying…

A 12 week scan photo of Peanut

Musings of a heart mummy: why I don’t get excited about seeing my baby on scan

​​I suppose there was once a time when going for a scan was exciting. When it was an opportunity to see my baby again, something to look forward to. I…

A 12 week scan photo

Don’t assume I have a gender preference!

“Oh I expect you want a boy this time around.”   This comment makes me annoyed every time I hear it. I have two beautiful little girls and I’m expecting…

A 12 week scan photo

Musings of a heart mummy: the worries that come with having another baby

​A few weeks ago, we went for our 12 week scan. As we waited, my eyes were drawn to one door in the corner. The sonographer called my name and…