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Friday Focus 14/03/2025 – Chaotic

Things have been somewhat chaotic this week in the LHBL house as we’ve been having some work done on our heating system having discovered a small gas leak last week…

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Friday Focus 07/03/2025 – Working through

This week has been all about working through things. We’ve had another significant milestone on our grief journey with Thomas overtaking Jessica in age, and working through all the emotions…

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Overtaking and overturning – another milestone on our child loss journey

Today Thomas has reached the age that Jessica was when she died. From tomorrow, my first-born child will become the youngest. The natural order of things will be turned on…

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Friday Focus 28/02/2025 – Emotional

This week has been an emotional one. There’s been moments of joy and things that have made me smile, alongside intense grief-bursts and feeling stressed and angry, moments of feeling…

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Friday Focus 21/02/2025 – Balance

We’ve been on half-term break this week and it’s been a nice balance of planned days out, chilled out time at home, visiting family and friends and low-key activities like…

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Meeting my younger self for coffee

I went to meet my younger self for coffee but couldn’t go in. Instead I hovered outside, just out of sight and peeped in on her, drinking in the sight…

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Friday Focus 14/02/2025 – Unwellness

It’s been another week of unwellness in the LHBL house. I had a nasty attack of vertigo on Friday which knocked me out of action for the day as I…

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Friday Focus 07/02/2025 – Disappointed

We’re feeling quite disappointed this week thanks to the timing of round two of chickenpox hitting the LHBL house. I didn’t think we’d escape it with Thomas, but I was…

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Friday Focus 31/01/2025 – Space

It’s been nice to have some space for myself this week with Sophie back at school again after being home with chickenpox last week. Thomas hasn’t yet come down with…

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Friday Focus 24/01/2025 – Chickenpox

Chickenpox has struck the LHBL house this week with Sophie being unwell at the start of the week and then coming out in spots on Wednesday. So far Thomas is…