I turned forty yesterday. The start of a new decade in my life. It’s made for a bit of an emotional rollercoaster of a week. Not because turning forty bothered me. It’s turning forty without Jessica that is hard. A significant milestone – another reminder that time goes on and sometimes it feels like time… Read More
I love having my mum come and stay. It’s been amazing having her staying with us for a week. I love the company, being able to have that time with her, watching her with the children and the support that I get as a result. It makes such a huge difference to have her here,… Read More
It meant so much last Sunday to see people joining in with #givejoyforjessica and sharing some joy in memory of my beautiful brave girl. We left some chocolate bars at church to be given out with the tea and coffee at the church lunch. It was lovely to see other people joining in too –… Read More
As expected, this week has been a stormy one on the grief front. With the memories of ‘this time last year’ becoming increasingly painful and the anniversary of Jessica’s death now just a couple of days away, my emotions have been very up and down. I knew this week would be a tough one. It’s… Read More
In those first awful moments after Jessica died, I remember sitting with her, stroking her hair and asking her to send me little signs to let me know that she was still with me in some way. It may be just wishful thinking on my part, but I am sure that I see robins, white… Read More
The ‘last times’ from this time last year are coming thick and fast on my Timehop now and unsurprisingly my emotions are a mess as a result. This time last year we were in the thick of it all – the viruses that ultimately led to Jessica’s death had well and truly taken hold and… Read More
Jessica’s memorial is now finished and has been put in place at her forever bed. We went up to GreenAcres on Wednesday with my mum and hubby’s parents to put her memorial in place. It is such a beautiful tribute to our little girl – a wooden sculpture of her holding her favourite dolly on… Read More