My mood seems to be matching the weather again this week, with life feeling quite grey and cloudy. Thomas was unwell over the weekend and although he was much better by Monday, he’s still not quite back to his usual happy self. I think he’s also teething at the moment which doesn’t help. He has two new teeth which have just started to come through at the top, and I think there are some bottom teeth trying to make their way through too. Poor little mite.
Hubby and I have also been a bit under the weather this week too. Sophie seems to be okay at the moment though – fingers crossed that it stays that way!
The storm clouds of grief have been gathering once more. We’re coming up to the 18-month mark of life without Jessica. Having to live life without Jessica is always hard – on some days it is a little easier to take a deep breath and just keep going, whereas on others that ever-present ache of longing is overwhelming. The pain of loss has been quite raw this week. We just miss her so very much.
In amongst the clouds though, there are still moments of sunshine. Show rehearsals always help make me feel better. It’s been so good for me to rediscover that love of singing and performing, and to be able to share that with Sophie makes it better still. Not long to go now until show week!
Things that have made me smile this week
- Going on a treasure trail with hubby, Sophie and Thomas.
- Watching Sophie dancing with Thomas while watching Strictly.
- Singing at the Duck Pond market to help promote The Sound of Music.
- Doing the first full run of the show.
- Watching Thomas and Sophie playing in the garden together.