Siblings – August 2018

One of the things I always loved about joining in with the Siblings project is how it helped me capture so many of the beautiful moments with my girls. For four years, I shared photos showing the beautiful bond they had along with a monthly update on all the little things each of them had been doing.

 

It breaks my heart that Sophie has lost that beautiful bond and the companionship she had with Jessica. My girls really were the best of friends. It was so wonderful to watch them playing together or walking along hand-in-hand as we headed out on adventures. I know that Sophie misses her big sister and playmate. It makes so sad that I cannot make it better; I cannot replace what she has lost.

 

It has been lovely though to see her enjoy some little sibling moments once more though with the arrival of baby Thomas. Sophie has been such a wonderful big sister so far. Seeing her with Thomas reminds me so much of how Jessica was with her. I know Jessica would have been equally wonderful and it breaks my heart that I will never get to see how she would have been with Thomas.

 

Sophie cuddling Thomas with the cushion showing Jessica looking on - "Siblings - August 2018"

 

One thing is for sure: Thomas will grow up knowing that he has two wonderful big sisters. We will tell him all about how excited his biggest sister was when she found out we were expecting him and how much she would have loved him.

 

Jessica is, and will always be, very much a part of our family and our lives. Having her photo on a cushion helps to make us feel that she is still with us in some ways. It also means that I can capture photos of my little trio together. Because they are a trio even though there are now only two of them here with me. I am, and will always be, a mother of three. Even though Jessica is no longer physically here, she is very much still here in our hearts and constantly in our thoughts.

 

Sophie with Thomas with Jessica's cushion in the middle

 

Jessica (forever 6 years 7 months)

  • We had the results back from the post-mortem. The cause of Jessica’s death was given as a congenital heart defect with secondary factors being viral infections and liver changes (which would have been as a result of her Fontan circulation). It doesn’t really explain why she died so suddenly. Having the post-mortem results meant that we were able to register Jessica’s death though.
  • Would have been so thrilled by Thomas’s arrival. She wanted Peanut to be a baby brother.

 

Sophie cuddling baby Thomas with Jessica's photo cushion in the background

 

Sophie (4 years 9 months)

  • Had a lovely time at her preschool leavers’ party and is looking forward to starting big school next month.
  • Is enjoying being a big sister and often tells us that she loves Thomas and is proud of her baby brother.
  • Loved the memory box that she was sent by Halo to help store things that remind her of Jessica. She then asked us to visit Jessica her forever bed so she could tell her sister about the memory box. It was the first time that she had asked to visit Jessica.
  • Has enjoyed having her cousins come to stay recently. She really misses having someone to play with all the time so loved having her cousins there to play with her.

 

Sophie cuddling baby Thomas with Jessica's photo cushion in the background

 

Thomas (0 years 3 weeks)

  • Is a little milk monster.
  • Visited Jessica’s forever bed on his first trip out and about.
  • Has now been registered so is all official.
  • Has loved having lots of cuddles with his cousins and being carried around in the sling when out and about.

 

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7 Comments

  1. August 15, 2018 / 7:47 am

    Hi Louise, posts like this must be so hard for you to write. The Jessica cushion really makes it feel like she is there with you. Posing and smiling. I’m sure she would have loved her little Peanut of a brother to the ends of the earth. Sophie is looking every bit the big sister now.

    xx

    • Louise
      Author
      August 15, 2018 / 10:19 am

      Thank you Debbie. I wanted to restart my siblings posts to record those moments with Sophie and Thomas but it was so important to include Jessica too. She would have been amazing with Thomas x

  2. August 15, 2018 / 10:03 am

    What a beautiful post about your three wonderful children. How lovely that Jessica’s cushion can always be there in photos of Sophie and Thomas. And how lovely that Sophie asked to visit Jessica so she could tell her about her memory box. x

    • Louise
      Author
      August 15, 2018 / 10:19 am

      Thank you Sarah. I love being able to include Jessica thanks to having that photo on the cushion x

  3. August 15, 2018 / 2:37 pm

    It’s so lovely that you’ve got Jessica’s cushion in the photos, a lovely way to capture your three beautiful children. I love that Sophie’s saying how proud she is of her brother already, she is going to be a great big sister as she learned how to do it from the very best of big sisters x

    • Louise
      Author
      August 17, 2018 / 9:11 am

      I love the cushion, it’s so good for being able to include Jessica in photos. Sophie is such a lovely big sister – she did have such a lovely big sister as a role model too x

  4. August 16, 2018 / 8:41 pm

    Sophie will be an amazing big sister and she learnt from the best. Gorgeous photos and it’s lovely that you can capture Jessica in them too x

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