I used to love watching my girls together at school drop-off and pick-up times. I loved the way that they would give each other a big cuddle and a kiss as they said goodbye to each other in the morning and their joy at being reunited at pick-up time. The… View Post

Me and Mine – February 2019

Me and Mine – February 2019

It has been ten and a half months since Jessica died. The memories from this time last year are now an ever-increasing series of “last times” – last birthday party, last time seeing Nanny, last heart check-up. As we hurtle towards the anniversary we dread, the storm of grief has… View Post

Siblings – February 2019

Siblings – February 2019

I love how Thomas interacts more and more with Sophie now. His little eyes light up when she arrives home from school in the afternoons and his biggest smiles and laughs are always reserved for her. Sophie’s first request on waking up each morning is nearly always to hold her… View Post

Me and Mine – January 2019

Me and Mine – January 2019

Taking a photo of all of us together each month has become routine now. Even now that our family is forever incomplete, it is still important to me to take that monthly photo. I always carry a photo of Jessica in my rucksack so that we can include her in… View Post

Siblings – January 2019

Siblings – January 2019

What a difference a year makes. When I wrote my siblings post this time last year, my girls were reunited again after Jessica’s Fontan procedure and we had just arrived home. I remember the joy of that moment when they were back together once more – the way Jessica waited… View Post

Me and Mine – December 2018

Me and Mine – December 2018

For the last few New Years, my wish at the start of the year was always the same: to end it with my family still complete. As we saw in the start of 2018, I was full of hope that my wish would be granted once again. Jessica was the… View Post

Siblings – December 2018

Siblings – December 2018

I love watching Sophie and Thomas together. Seeing how gentle Sophie is with him and the way he smiles at her is just beautiful. It so reminds me of how my girls were together. What a loving trio my three children would have made together and how I wish I… View Post