For the last few New Years, my wish at the start of the year was always the same: to end it with my family still complete. As we saw in the start of 2018, I was full of hope that my wish would be granted once again. Jessica was the… View Post
I sit on the sofa with a sleeping baby in my arms and a cup of tea next to me. For a moment, I think I should put him down. My to-do list is a long one at this time of year. I think of the jobs I should be… View Post
I found it hard to find the right Christmas card for hubby this year. Most of the ones in the shops had sentiments looking forward to a “magical Christmas” or “the best Christmas ever” or “making happy memories” and other similar thoughts. Trying to find one that expressed what I… View Post
I shared a post recently on my personal Facebook feed to help family and friends with Christmas cards this year. A reminder that it was okay to include Jessica’s name. That phrases such as “and remembering…” or “never forgetting…” do not offend a bereaved parent, but are welcomed. Jessica may… View Post
Jessica is never far from our thoughts, but we’ve been thinking and talking about her a lot over the past week. Last Friday, we had a meeting with Jessica’s cardiac consultant on Ocean Ward to discuss the findings from the post-mortem. We have now been given a more detailed report… View Post
In the beginning, there was joy. Two excited big sisters. The dream of life as five. My big girl patting my tummy, giving it kisses. Resting her head on my bump, telling me that you were kicking her. Excitement, anticipation, joy. Then utter desolation. Joy turned to sorrow.… View Post
October is one of hubby’s busiest months for events and family moments can be few and far between. I am used to flying solo although it can feel very lonely at times. I’ve learned though to make the most of the family moments when I can get them in the… View Post
