For the last few New Years, my wish at the start of the year was always the same: to end it with my family still complete. As we saw in the start of 2018, I was full of hope that my wish would be granted once again. Jessica was the… View Post

Christmas isn’t always magical

Christmas isn’t always magical

I found it hard to find the right Christmas card for hubby this year. Most of the ones in the shops had sentiments looking forward to a “magical Christmas” or “the best Christmas ever” or “making happy memories” and other similar thoughts. Trying to find one that expressed what I… View Post

Grief and life after Jessica: Say her name

Grief and life after Jessica: Say her name

I shared a post recently on my personal Facebook feed to help family and friends with Christmas cards this year. A reminder that it was okay to include Jessica’s name. That phrases such as “and remembering…” or “never forgetting…” do not offend a bereaved parent, but are welcomed. Jessica may… View Post

Complicated emotions: loving my rainbow baby

Complicated emotions: loving my rainbow baby

In the beginning, there was joy. Two excited big sisters. The dream of life as five. My big girl patting my tummy, giving it kisses. Resting her head on my bump, telling me that you were kicking her. Excitement, anticipation, joy.   Then utter desolation.   Joy turned to sorrow.… View Post

Me and Mine – October 2018

Me and Mine – October 2018

October is one of hubby’s busiest months for events and family moments can be few and far between. I am used to flying solo although it can feel very lonely at times. I’ve learned though to make the most of the family moments when I can get them in the… View Post