Here I am again – back to doing the school run. Dropping a little girl off at a reception classroom once more. How different it all is second time around.…
I’ve been told a few times since Jessica died that I need to have counselling. I’m sure the people who tell me this mean well, but it leaves me wondering…
Jessica’s birthday was always such a milestone moment. As well as being her birthday, it was also one of her heart days – the anniversary of her first open heart…
Darling Jessica, Tomorrow is your seventh birthday. You should be getting excited about it, looking forward to your cards and presents, telling me what cake you want. But you’re…
Grief is a funny thing. There are times when I feel like I am drowning in the stormy sea of grief and times when the waves calm and I find…
Some days you feel so far away. I look for signs that you are still here with me somehow and there are none. Just emptiness. I long for you…
So much of what I read about child bereavement focuses on grieving mothers. I read things like “there is no pain greater than that of a grieving mother” and while…
“How are you?” Such a natural question and so difficult to answer at times. I have my standard responses now. I’m ok. Surviving. Up and down. Taking it moment by…
Last night I dreamed about Jessica. She was wearing a hand-knitted green and white cardigan that she’d had as a toddler, although in my dream she was the age she…
If you’d asked me to describe our daily life with Jessica, I would have said it was pretty normal. All the things that came with having a child with a…
