Child loss

Jessica asleep in her bed

Grief and life after Jessica: the loneliness of 3am

Once upon a time, I sat on the floor, exhausted and sleep-deprived, waiting for my girls to settle down to sleep and wrote a post about the loneliness of 3AM.…

The dragonfly in Jessica's garden at preschool

Grief and life after Jessica: after the funeral

Organising a funeral is similar to organising a wedding – only without being fun. There are flowers to organise, halls to book, catering to organise, service sheets to put together.…

A drawing of me, hubby and Sophie in a boat tossed about on a stormy sea

Grief and life after Jessica: the stormy sea

Since losing Jessica, our lives have changed forever. It feels as though we have been thrown into a boat, tossed on the waves of a stormy sea. Behind us is…

A butterfly sitting on a yellow flower

Grief and life after Jessica: the first few days

I once described life on PICU as being a rollercoaster of emotions and it was. It was a bumpy ride next to the rollercoaster we have been riding this week.…