As expected, this week has been a stormy one on the grief front. With the memories of ‘this time last year’ becoming increasingly painful and the anniversary of Jessica’s death now just a couple of days away, my emotions have been very up and down. I knew this week would be a tough one. It’s… Read More
In those first awful moments after Jessica died, I remember sitting with her, stroking her hair and asking her to send me little signs to let me know that she was still with me in some way. It may be just wishful thinking on my part, but I am sure that I see robins, white… Read More
The ‘last times’ from this time last year are coming thick and fast on my Timehop now and unsurprisingly my emotions are a mess as a result. This time last year we were in the thick of it all – the viruses that ultimately led to Jessica’s death had well and truly taken hold and… Read More
Jessica’s memorial is now finished and has been put in place at her forever bed. We went up to GreenAcres on Wednesday with my mum and hubby’s parents to put her memorial in place. It is such a beautiful tribute to our little girl – a wooden sculpture of her holding her favourite dolly on… Read More
Last Friday afternoon, we were invited to Jessica and Sophie’s school for the official opening of Jessica’s memorial. The school had clearly put a lot of thought and effort into it and it was a beautiful tribute to our big girl. Some of Jessica’s classmates and their parents were also there, along with members of… Read More
I’ve been finding it hard to socialise recently. Grief can make other people feel uncomfortable. Talking about Jessica can sometimes be met with awkward silences, changing the subject, or well-meaning but hurtful comments. I know that it’s just that people don’t know what to say or how to react but at the moment, I just… Read More
Life has felt like an uphill struggle lately. I’m tired and run-down having spent most of half-term suffering from flu and this week getting over it. Grief has been hitting very hard lately as we get closer and closer to the first anniversary of Jessica’s death. Memories of this time last year are now becoming… Read More