At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding little things to be grateful for isn’t always easy, especially when living through scary and uncertain times. I have found though that trying to find something, however small and trivial, to be grateful for has helped me through some of the hardest days of my life.
My eldest daughter Jessica, who died in April 2018, was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 313 – I am grateful for those who gave their lives in the hope of trying to make the world a safer place for all and those who continue to work for peace and healing in the world.
Day 314 – I am grateful that tomorrow is another day.
Day 315 – I am grateful for breakfast al fresco.
Day 316 – I am grateful for a nice socially-distanced walk and chat with a friend this morning which has helped boost my mood. The last few days have been a struggle with grief-guilt repeatedly smacking me in the face. This morning has helped me regain a little perspective – I’m not through the storm yet but I know that it will pass and that I don’t have to ride it alone.
Day 317 – I am grateful for winter boots.
Day 318 – I am grateful for the help that Children in Need gives to so many projects that help support children, such as Halo Children’s Foundation which provides support to bereaved children like Sophie. Sophie was very excited to see a very brief glimpse of herself at Halo in the video for this year’s Children in Need single.
Day 319 – I am grateful for umbrellas, rain covers, wellies and waterproofs.