I’ve been told a few times since Jessica died that I need to have counselling. I’m sure the people who tell me this mean well, but it leaves me wondering why they think I need it so much. Is it because they feel like I’m not coping with my grief? Or that I’m not… Read More
Since losing Jessica, our lives have changed forever. It feels as though we have been thrown into a boat, tossed on the waves of a stormy sea. Behind us is the island that was our happy complete family life. An island that we are forever exiled from. An island that we desperately want to return… Read More
Reality has hit us hard this week. There have been so many moments over the last couple of weeks where losing Jessica hasn’t quite seemed real. This week the realisation that there will be no new memories to make with her, no more moments to enjoy together has hit hard. Making the practical arrangements for… Read More
As with the Siblings project earlier this month, I’ve decided to share a Me and Mine post this month with the final photos of our family enjoying time together. This month started with us on holiday on the Isle of Wight. The WiFi was rubbish, the phone reception was poor and so we switched off… Read More
It’s been nearly two weeks since Jessica passed away suddenly. I’m not sure that the reality of it has really hit me yet. Most of the time it just doesn’t feel real – I can’t quite bring myself to believe that my beautiful girl has gone. There are moments when it does hit me; moments… Read More
I once described life on PICU as being a rollercoaster of emotions and it was. It was a bumpy ride next to the rollercoaster we have been riding this week. Emotions that change from minute to minute, that come thick and fast, alarming in their suddenness and intensity. They leave me exhausted and drained. Sometimes… Read More
This is the post that I always feared I would one day have to write. It breaks my heart to be writing it now. Our beautiful Jessica passed away in the early hours of this morning. She had been unwell on and off for several weeks after returning to school. We had several doctor’s visits,… Read More