I’ve been told a few times since Jessica died that I need to have counselling. I’m sure the people who tell me this mean well, but it leaves me wondering why they think I need it so much.   Is it because they feel like I’m not coping with my… View Post

Grief and life after Jessica: the stormy sea

Grief and life after Jessica: the stormy sea

Since losing Jessica, our lives have changed forever. It feels as though we have been thrown into a boat, tossed on the waves of a stormy sea. Behind us is the island that was our happy complete family life. An island that we are forever exiled from. An island that… View Post

Me and Mine – April 2018

Me and Mine – April 2018

As with the Siblings project earlier this month, I’ve decided to share a Me and Mine post this month with the final photos of our family enjoying time together. This month started with us on holiday on the Isle of Wight. The WiFi was rubbish, the phone reception was poor… View Post

Grief and life after Jessica: the first few …

Grief and life after Jessica: the first few days

I once described life on PICU as being a rollercoaster of emotions and it was. It was a bumpy ride next to the rollercoaster we have been riding this week. Emotions that change from minute to minute, that come thick and fast, alarming in their suddenness and intensity. They leave… View Post

Journey’s end

Journey’s end

This is the post that I always feared I would one day have to write. It breaks my heart to be writing it now. Our beautiful Jessica passed away in the early hours of this morning. She had been unwell on and off for several weeks after returning to school.… View Post