We should have been in hospital that afternoon, preparing for Jessica’s surgery the following day. Instead, we were enjoying spending time together as a family, and having fun at Langley Park. After a busy couple of months with hubby being away frequently, this was just what we needed. Time together to just have fun as a family; time to pause and to reconnect with each other. Soaking in some precious moments before we had to begin the countdown to surgery once again.
Jessica’s surgery had been postponed. The children’s cardiac ward and paediatric intensive care units were just too busy. It happens. We weren’t an emergency and we needed to wait for a new date; for a better time for the surgery to take place. Hubby and I understood that and accepted it, but having her “sleepover at the doctors” delayed was a big disappointment for Jessica. I thought going for an ice-cream at Langley Park café and then having time in the playground would help ease some of that disappointment.
As disappointing as it was for Jessica, I think it was a good thing for us as a family. Hubby had only just returned from a big trip away and was struggling with having to step on the hospital rollercoaster so soon. A short delay meant space for him to get his head around it all again and the opportunity to enjoy some quality time together.
An afternoon at Langley Park was also the perfect opportunity for him to try out his new scooter! Jessica and Sophie loved the fact that Daddy could scoot along with them. I’d given it a try myself the previous weekend at our local park. It had been fun, but I was quite happy to leave the scooting to Daddy and just take photos!
One of the things I love most about being out and about with hubby and the girls is seeing the big kid in my husband. The way he just joins in with the fun and silliness and so clearly loves every moment of it. Not to mention how much the girls love having Daddy join in with their fun.
These are my favourite moments of family life. Being together and having fun outdoors. A moment of feeling like we didn’t have a care in the world. We were in the limbo of waiting for a new date again. For that brief moment, there was no mental countdown going on in my head; no worry of ‘what will be happening this time next week?’ There was just the four of us, together once again and enjoying every minute of it.
“Having a child with a life threatening condition changes you. It brings out strength in you that you never knew you had, it makes you appreciate the little things in life, it makes you fear that every memory you make together may be your last, and it teaches you that miracles do happen.” (Author unknown)
If I had to sum up my life as a heart mummy with a single quote it would be this one. I first came across it in the weeks before Jessica was born and it has stayed with me ever since. I’ve never appreciated the little things in life more than when the future is uncertain as it is at the moment. It makes me realise once again just how precious and wonderful those everyday family moments really are.
Jessica’s surgery has now been rescheduled for 21st November. As we get closer to the new date for her surgery, I find myself appreciating those little everyday things all the more. The ordinary family moments together become increasingly precious. There’s a yearning to capture every detail and store it in my heart – the sound of my girls’ laughter as they both slide down the slide to land on Daddy at the bottom; the feel of a small mittened hand in mine; the way my girls’ eyes light up when they’re having fun. Little details that my camera will never quite capture, no matter how hard I try.
These are the moments that make life magical. I am thankful for each and every one of them.