The little things have overwhelmed me this week. The combination of worrying about the next step on our heart family journey and tiredness from the end of term has not been a good one. One minute I’m feeling fairly strong about it all; the next I feel like I’m not coping well at all. It tends to be the most trivial of things that tips the balance too.
I’ve been quite emotional as the end of term approached. Yesterday was Jessica’s last day in Reception and I have to admit I shed a few tears as I dropped her off and again when I picked her up. It has been amazing to see how she has grown and thrived this year. She has learned so much. It has been a joy to see her develop a love of reading and writing. I felt quite sad saying goodbye to her teacher who has been wonderful, especially when it has come to keeping a closer eye on Jessica and working with her additional needs.
Today is the first day of the summer holidays for us. It’s a summer break that I can’t see the end of. Somewhere in the coming weeks is that big obstacle that is a major heart surgery and I cannot see beyond it. I don’t know where we will be at the start of the new school year in September, whether we’ll be in hospital, still waiting for surgery or back home recovering. We are meeting the surgeon in a couple of weeks and will know more then. In the meantime, I’ll be doing my best to focus on enjoying time with both my girls and making as many memories as I possibly can.
Things I have loved this week:
- Jessica wanting to wear her princess dress for her school disco and Sophie deciding she had to dress up too.
- A family day out at Chessington World of Adventures.
- Making mud cakes in the garden with my girls.
- Jessica sitting down and writing a lovely thank you letter to her “best teacher” without any prompting to do so.
- Baking chocolate chip and orange biscuits as thank you presents for Jessica’s teachers.
- Being sent some personalized superhero capes for my girls. Jessica’s cape was perfect for her “Super Jessica” costume for her superhero day at the end of term. I stitched a heart with a zipper scar to the front of the T shirt and made a mask to finish the costume. Being a heart warrior makes her a superhero in her own right!
- Going out for ice cream to celebrate the end of Jessica’s first year at school.