Family

Me (holding Jessica's photo), hubby, Sophie and Thomas with the Gruffalo at Chessington World of Adventures

Me and Mine – March 2019

This time last year we were heading off on our very last family holiday with Jessica. We’d decided to go to the Isle of Wight so we could have a…

Sophie and Thomas sitting on my bed in their pyjamas next to Jessica's photo blanket

Siblings – March 2019

I used to love watching my girls together at school drop-off and pick-up times. I loved the way that they would give each other a big cuddle and a kiss…

Me, hubby, Sophie (holding a picture of Jessica) and Thomas (in the buggy) at West Wycombe Park

Me and Mine – February 2019

It has been ten and a half months since Jessica died. The memories from this time last year are now an ever-increasing series of “last times” – last birthday party,…

Sophie (holding a picture of Jessica) in the snow with Thomas in the Bumbo and a snowman with pipe-cleaner glasses and a blue and white hat and scarf

Siblings – February 2019

I love how Thomas interacts more and more with Sophie now. His little eyes light up when she arrives home from school in the afternoons and his biggest smiles and…

Sophie, hubby, Thomas and me holding a picture of Jessica next to the snowman Sophie built

Me and Mine – January 2019

Taking a photo of all of us together each month has become routine now. Even now that our family is forever incomplete, it is still important to me to take…

Thomas and Sophie lying either side of Jessica's photo blanket

Siblings – January 2019

What a difference a year makes. When I wrote my siblings post this time last year, my girls were reunited again after Jessica’s Fontan procedure and we had just arrived…

Hubby, Thomas, Sophie (holding Jessica's picture) and me in front of our Christmas tree at Coombe Mill

Me and Mine – December 2018

For the last few New Years, my wish at the start of the year was always the same: to end it with my family still complete. As we saw in…

A Nativity scene with Sophie as Mary, Thomas as baby Jesus and Jessica as an angel

Siblings – December 2018

I love watching Sophie and Thomas together. Seeing how gentle Sophie is with him and the way he smiles at her is just beautiful. It so reminds me of how…

Me, hubby, Sophie (holding a picture of Jessica) and Thomas with Father Christmas at Wyevale World's End

Me and Mine – November 2018

I feel like I say this at the end of every month, but it’s been an emotional month. I guess the emotional rollercoaster is now our normal in many ways;…

Sophie cuddling Thomas with Jessica looking on from a photo on her photo blanket

Siblings – November 2018

There are moments when I just look at my children and realise how quickly they grow and change. Looking at this month’s photos was one of those moments. Sophie looks…