At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding little things to be grateful for isn’t always easy, especially when living through scary and uncertain times. I have found though that trying to find something, however small and trivial, to be grateful for has helped me through some of the hardest days of my life.
My eldest daughter Jessica, who died in April 2018, was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 166 – I am grateful that my Charlotte rose, which was planted in memory of Jessica, has flowered for the first time.
Day 167 – I am grateful for being able to see my mum for the first time in more than three months and to be able to give her a hug. The children were so excited to be able to see Nanny again.
Day 168 – I am grateful to be able to bring Nanny to visit Jessica.
Day 169 – I am grateful that Nanny has been keeping the children entertained today so I could focus on various meetings and work through all the things I needed to do today.
Day 170 – I am grateful for fun home learning activities. This week’s theme is music and Sophie enjoyed making herself a drum from a plastic pot and a rubber glove.
Day 171 – I am grateful for pretty new dresses.
Day 172 – I am grateful for time to sit and do some nature crafts with Sophie.