At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding little things to be grateful for isn’t always easy, especially when living through scary and uncertain times. I have found though that trying to find something, however small and trivial, to be grateful for has helped me through some of the hardest days of my life.
My eldest daughter Jessica, who died in April 2018, was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 152 – I am grateful for our new paddling pool.
Day 153 – I am grateful that Thomas holds Sophie’s hand so nicely while out for a walk. So lovely to watch them walking ahead of me, hand-in-hand, just like Sophie and Jessica used to do.
Day 154 – I am grateful for long hair and a little girl who is happy to let Mummy play!
Day 155 – I am grateful for some much-needed rain.
Day 156 – I am grateful for hair dye.
Day 157 – I am grateful that it stayed dry for our walk.
Day 158 – I am grateful for the way that a little imagination can turn a walk in the woods into a big adventure. We’ve trekked through the jungle, explored deep dark tunnels and found a pirate ship washed up on the river bank today. Lots of fun.