At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding little things to be grateful for isn’t always easy, especially when living through scary and uncertain times. I have found though that trying to find something, however small and trivial, to be grateful for has helped me through some of the hardest days of my life.
My eldest daughter Jessica, who died in April 2018, was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 103 – I am grateful to have been able to share Easter worship with my church family this morning from my piano thanks to hubby’s brilliant video streaming skills. So lovely to feel that sense of community as a church again. Thank you to everyone who joined me. Happy Easter all!
Day 104 – I am grateful to have so many photos and videos and wonderful memories of my beautiful big girl. They will never be enough but I am thankful to have them. Today has been an emotional day as we head into the second anniversary of Jessica’s death. I love and miss this little girl more than words could say but I will always be thankful that I got to have her for six and a half wonderful years and no-one can take those beautiful memories away.
Day 105 – I am grateful that Jessica’s legacy is love. We have felt so surrounded by love all day today and it has meant a lot to see others sharing joy in memory of our beautiful big girl. Thank you all for holding her – and us – in your hearts today. Thank you too to GreenAcres Chiltern for putting these beautiful flowers in Jessica’s vase at her forever bed today and sending us photos when we have been unable to visit her.
Day 106 – I am grateful to have solved a Rubix cube for the first time (albeit with a little online help!)
Day 107 – I am grateful for fairies at the bottom of our garden.
Day 108 – I am grateful that the children are enjoying having so much time with Daddy.
Day 109 – I am grateful that Thomas enjoys playing in the playhouse in the garden as much as his sisters did.