It’s been good to have time to enjoy things this week. Sophie went on a Girls’ Brigade sleepover for the first time last weekend and thoroughly enjoyed herself. It was quite strange not having her around but it was nice too to have some one-to-one time with Thomas.     Sophie also got some one-to-one… Read More

I’m starting to feel more organised and on top of things again after feeling fairly overwhelmed by the to-do list over the last few months. I’ve been managing to do some decluttering around the house and it’s beginning to look a lot more tidy than it has been, which has also helped ease the overwhelm.… Read More

Back to normality this week after the Easter break and the highs of show week. The after-show blues hit Sophie hard on Saturday night after the final show, along with most of the other children in the cast. It is sad when a show comes to an end. It was an amazing show and I… Read More

It’s five years today since Jessica died and in honour of my beautiful big girl, I’ve chosen love as my word of the week. Jessica might have only had half a working heart but it was a heart that absolutely overflowed with love and I will always feel hugely blessed to be her mummy and… Read More

The Easter holidays are here and we’ve had a week full of fun activities. Sophie and Thomas have enjoyed an Easter card-making workshop at Denham Country Park, a day out at Chiltern Open Air Museum, meeting up with a friend at Black Park and a sledging session at Snozone. I had my first experience of… Read More

This week has certainly been a challenging one, to put it mildly. I’ve had a fair few triggers from things that have happened this week which have been tough to deal with emotionally, bringing back some difficult memories from five years ago. Sophie had a couple of days of being quite tired and lethargic after… Read More

It’s that time of year when I become aware of an increasing heaviness settling on me. The weight of grief feels almost physical at times. Even though it was anticipated with Mother’s Day this week, and the fifth anniversary of Jessica’s death starting to loom on the horizon, it catches me unaware at times, hitting… Read More