April has certainly been a tough month for us with the first anniversary of Jessica’s death. I still can’t quite believe that we have managed to survive a year without our beautiful big girl. Sometimes people comment that they don’t know how we manage to keep going. The answer is that we keep going because… Read More
It’s been a year since Jessica died. A year in which Sophie’s position within our family changed dramatically – from little sister, to our only living child, and then to being the big sister. The middle child – yet never having the experience of being the middle child. No longer having her big sister there… Read More
I used to love watching my girls together at school drop-off and pick-up times. I loved the way that they would give each other a big cuddle and a kiss as they said goodbye to each other in the morning and their joy at being reunited at pick-up time. The way they would walk together… Read More
It has been ten and a half months since Jessica died. The memories from this time last year are now an ever-increasing series of “last times” – last birthday party, last time seeing Nanny, last heart check-up. As we hurtle towards the anniversary we dread, the storm of grief has been picking up once more.… Read More
I love how Thomas interacts more and more with Sophie now. His little eyes light up when she arrives home from school in the afternoons and his biggest smiles and laughs are always reserved for her. Sophie’s first request on waking up each morning is nearly always to hold her baby brother and give him… Read More
Taking a photo of all of us together each month has become routine now. Even now that our family is forever incomplete, it is still important to me to take that monthly photo. I always carry a photo of Jessica in my rucksack so that we can include her in the photo if an opportunity… Read More
What a difference a year makes. When I wrote my siblings post this time last year, my girls were reunited again after Jessica’s Fontan procedure and we had just arrived home. I remember the joy of that moment when they were back together once more – the way Jessica waited by the ward door for… Read More