Darling Jessica, Tomorrow is your seventh birthday. You should be getting excited about it, looking forward to your cards and presents, telling me what cake you want. But you’re not here. You are frozen forever in time. Forever six. I won’t get to see you celebrate another birthday, or blow the candles out on… Read More
Grief is a funny thing. There are times when I feel like I am drowning in the stormy sea of grief and times when the waves calm and I find myself just floating along. I have been told that with the passing of time, the frequency of the storms will reduce. That as I move… Read More
One of the things I always loved about joining in with the Siblings project is how it helped me capture so many of the beautiful moments with my girls. For four years, I shared photos showing the beautiful bond they had along with a monthly update on all the little things each of them had… Read More
Some days you feel so far away. I look for signs that you are still here with me somehow and there are none. Just emptiness. I long for you to visit me in my dreams but night after night goes by and I do not see you there. I search for you all… Read More
We spent Thomas’s first week at home together, enjoying being in a newborn bubble. When we finally ventured out and about with him, there was one place we had to go to first. We had to take him to GreenAcres to visit his big sister in her forever bed. Thomas’s arrival has brought… Read More
I can’t quite believe that baby Thomas is a week old already. This past week has been an incredibly bittersweet one. Thomas has brought us so much joy but there has been so much sadness too and we have missed our big girl so very much this week. From a grief perspective, it… Read More
So much of what I read about child bereavement focuses on grieving mothers. I read things like “there is no pain greater than that of a grieving mother” and while I understand why people write that, it also makes me cross. The pain of a grieving mother is often acknowledged but what about the dads?… Read More