It’s been a full-on couple of weeks over the Easter holidays, trying to keep Sophie and Thomas entertained while navigating the storms of grief around the anniversary of Jessica’s death as well as juggling work and my church commitments during Holy Week. We got through it all, and most of the balls being juggled stayed up in the air, but it’s certainly been an emotional rollercoaster of a fortnight. I’m feeling rather exhausted, emotionally as well as physically, as a result of it all and hoping for a quieter couple of weeks to recover from it all.
What I’ve been grateful for over the last two weeks:
- Day 98 – I am grateful for a lovely afternoon at Bekonscot to start the Easter holidays.
- Day 99 – I am grateful that the playground at Langley Park finally has some new play equipment.
- Day 100 – I am grateful that the writing did come off with soap and water!
- Day 101 – I am grateful for how much joy Sophie gets out of tap dancing. The standard was high today at Slough Festival and it was her toughest section yet. Super proud of her for coming first and getting the gold medal. Well done Sophie!
- Day 102 – I am grateful for a lovely day out at Chiltern Open Air Museum
- Day 103 – I am grateful for getting out for a cuppa with a friend.
- Day 104 – I am grateful for Jessica and the joy she gave to us and others during her six years on this earth and for the joy that others have been sharing in memory of our little joy-carrier. Today has of course been a very emotional day remembering our beautiful girl but we know we have been held in love and it means a lot that Jessica has been remembered by others too. Thank you to everyone who has shared some joy in her memory
- Day 105 – I am grateful that the Good Friday walk of witness was able to take place again this year.
- Day 106 – I am grateful that Thomas was okay after he gave us the slip at the coffee morning today and wandered off. Horrible couple of moments of absolute panic realising he wasn’t in the church or car park but just I was running down towards the main road, I saw a family coming towards me carrying him having found him at the crossing. So relieved that he was ok but so scary how easily something like this can happen.
- Day 107 – I am grateful for an Easter egg hunt in Grandma and Grandad’s garden.
- Day 108 – I am grateful for getting out for a lovely family walk and finding some geocaches along the way. We found ten today bringing my total finds to 100, which was a nice milestone too.
- Day 109 – I am grateful for a day catching up with my family and getting to see my lovely niece on her birthday.
- Day 110 – I am grateful for an afternoon at Black Park finding all the bugs on the ‘litterbug trail’ and watching Sophie and Thomas having fun in the playground.
- Day 111 – I am grateful that Sophie was able to join in again with Thomas’s TinyTalk class.
Other things that have made me smile over the last two weeks:
- Baking banana bread and cakes with Sophie for her to share with friends as our way of giving joy for Jessica.
- The beautiful flowers from friends and family members remembering Jessica.
- Trying on costumes for a photoshoot at rehearsal.
- An Easter crafts session at church.
- Thomas getting his place at the infant school his sisters went to.
- Sophie telling me how lucky she is that I’m her mummy and that she loves me all the way to Pluto and back.
- Seeing the beautiful bluebells while out on a walk in the woods.