This week has been quite a tough one. Sophie and I tested positive for Covid on Saturday, then Thomas completed the set on Sunday. Other than Sophie having a high temperature and being very tired one evening and Thomas having a bit of a cough and runny nose, the children haven’t been particularly unwell. I seem to have been hit the hardest and had a few days spent mostly curled up on the sofa feeling rubbish.
Being unwell with two children going a bit stir-crazy from not being able to venture out anywhere other than the garden has not been fun. Thomas in particular has been full of mischief, particularly at bedtime. The clock-change and lack of exercise hasn’t helped with that. My energy levels and patience levels have both been rather low this week. It’s also been one of those weeks when it feels like each day has thrown another curve-ball at me. There have been various things I’ve not had the luxury of being able to switch off from that have been stressful to resolve. We’re currently without heating and hot water due to a leaky valve in the airing cupboard resulted in water collecting above the living room ceiling. Thankfully we noticed the bulge in the ceiling and were able to drain the water before any further damage happened.
There’s also been the extra weight of grief at this time of year, especially with it being Mothers’ Day last weekend. I’ve struggled a lot this week and spent a lot of time crying (and shouting too if I’m honest – grief for me expresses itself mostly through sadness and anger). I’d like to say that I hope next week will be better, but the next couple of weeks are going to be tough ones and I think the best I can hope for is not to have the additional stresses on top of having to ride the storms of grief.
On the plus side, we’ve had good support from friends this week. From phone calls checking in on us and doorstep deliveries of things to help make this week easier, to just knowing we are held in love – I’ve been thankful for having that support network around us. We’ll get there.
What I’ve been grateful for this week:
- Day 84 – I am grateful for the realisation that now Thomas is dry at night, we are completely done with potty training! Hooray!!!
- Day 85 – I am grateful for paracetamol and for friends stepping in to cover my jobs at church tomorrow.
- Day 86 – I am grateful for a delivery of daffodils from church.
- Day 87 – I am grateful to be feeling a bit better today and for being able to sit out in the garden and enjoy the sunshine.
- Day 88 – I am grateful for snuggles on the sofa.
- Day 89 – I am grateful that I noticed the slight shadow on the wall alerting us to the bulge in the ceiling and the water leak in the airing cupboard. 2 litres of water now drained from the ceiling. Leaky valve now wrapped in towels. We have no heating or hot water but we thankfully still have a ceiling in situ.
- Day 90 – I am grateful for amazing friends dropping off heaters and a box of Happy Street for the children today and a lovely bag of goodies yesterday. Thank you so much for helping make things feel a little easier.
Other things that have made me smile this week:
- Discovering pressed flowers from last summer in the flower press when Sophie went to press some of the spring flowers.
- Sophie’s joy over having some snow showers.