I was woken by the sudden gush of fluid as my waters broke. It was 2:46am – the time that Jessica had died. It felt significant that they had broken at this time; a reminder that Jessica was still with us somehow. Sophie was asleep at the bottom end of our bed but hubby’s side… Read More
We’ve been preparing a little more for Peanut’s imminent arrival over the last couple of weeks. There’s now space in our bedroom for the Moses basket and we’ve been busy decluttering the spare room ready to turn it into Sophie’s new bedroom. The carpet is due to arrive at the end of this week which… Read More
The realisation that we are getting closer and closer to Peanut’s arrival has well and truly hit now. I still feel a very long way off being ready for Peanut’s arrival. I have at least started to prepare a little more for it now. The Moses basket has come down from the loft and we… Read More
One of the things that I find hard about having to cope with grieving for Jessica while being pregnant with Peanut is the lack of information and support for women in my situation. I have searched online so many times, trying to find another story like ours. Trying to find someone else who has walked… Read More
I’ve now hit the point in my pregnancy when it has suddenly dawned on me that we really are about to have another baby – and how soon that moment will arrive. We’re now closer to Peanut’s arrival than we are to Jessica’s death which brings the reality of it all back into sharp perspective.… Read More
I can’t quite believe that I’m now firmly into the third trimester of this pregnancy. Physically, the second trimester was a fairly easy one. Emotionally it has been the hardest time of my life. I remember being on holiday when I was around 22 weeks pregnant; sitting on the sofa with Jessica lying with her… Read More
I can’t quite believe I’m already at the halfway point with this pregnancy. The weeks seem to be going by very quickly. I’m now at the stage where I’m enjoying my pregnancy. I have a reasonable amount of energy and am mostly feeling quite comfortable. In all honesty, there are times when I almost forget… Read More