Today Thomas has reached the age that Jessica was when she died. From tomorrow, my first-born child will become the youngest. The natural order of things will be turned on its head yet again, as it has been many times since the moment Jessica died. Another painful milestone on our grief journey. Another reminder of… Read More
This week has been an emotional one. There’s been moments of joy and things that have made me smile, alongside intense grief-bursts and feeling stressed and angry, moments of feeling very low or anxious, and moments of calmness and feeling more rational about things. The high point of the last week was watching… Read More
We’ve been on half-term break this week and it’s been a nice balance of planned days out, chilled out time at home, visiting family and friends and low-key activities like a trip to the park or a movie evening. It’s been good to have fun moments together but also have some downtime too. I managed… Read More
I went to meet my younger self for coffee but couldn’t go in. Instead I hovered outside, just out of sight and peeped in on her, drinking in the sight of her with her two little girls, hearing the giggles and seeing the love and cuddles. I was so proud of her. Proud of the… Read More
It’s been another week of unwellness in the LHBL house. I had a nasty attack of vertigo on Friday which knocked me out of action for the day as I could barely move my head without the room spinning. Thankfully my husband was able to work from home that day and take over as primary… Read More
We’re feeling quite disappointed this week thanks to the timing of round two of chickenpox hitting the LHBL house. I didn’t think we’d escape it with Thomas, but I was hoping it would appear by the end of last weekend as it takes about five days from the spots appearing to them scabbing over and… Read More
It’s been nice to have some space for myself this week with Sophie back at school again after being home with chickenpox last week. Thomas hasn’t yet come down with it, but we’re still within the timeframe for the incubation period so he could still do so. I’m hoping he’ll come down with it sooner… Read More