At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding something to be grateful for each day isn’t about trying to give the impression that life is perfect and wonderful. It isn’t. Those little moments of gratitude can be hard to find at times; particularly after my eldest daughter Jessica died in April 2018. Some days, I struggle to find my grateful moment; some days I just feel broken and bruised. But even when it has been hard to do, I have still managed to find something. Even if it is something small, and silly, and trivial.
Jessica was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 19 – I am grateful for being able to make frozen bubbles outside this morning.
Day 20 – I am grateful that my piano has been tuned again ready for the start of rehearsals for the next Pyramix concert.
Day 21 – I am grateful for warm hats, coats and adorable little welly boots.
Day 22 – I am grateful for friends who share their memories of Jessica every now and then with me. Always so lovely to know that other people are thinking of and remembering her, and to be reminded of little moments that I had almost forgotten or be given “new” memories as a result.
Day 23 – I am grateful for books.
Day 24 – I am grateful for time to stop and feed the ducks after school.
Day 25 – I am grateful that Sophie enjoyed our third and final panto trip of the season.