At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding little things to be grateful for isn’t always easy, especially when living through scary and uncertain times. I have found though that trying to find something, however small and trivial, to be grateful for has helped me through some of the hardest days of my life.
My eldest daughter Jessica, who died in April 2018, was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 138 – I am grateful for a lovely walk with Sophie while Thomas had his nap.
Day 139 – I am grateful that Thomas enjoyed being able to sit at the little table with Sophie for dinner instead of in his high chair. It’s been a long time since I had two children sitting together to eat dinner like this. Was lovely to see them sitting and eating together although will always wish there could have been three of them sitting together there.
Day 140 – I am grateful for home-made ice lollies.
Day 141 – I am grateful for seeds. Sophie enjoyed helping me plant sunflowers and vegetables today. Fingers crossed they grow well!
Day 142 – I am grateful for summery outfits and sandals.
Day 143 – I am grateful that Thomas no longer has Boris hair. I’ve managed to give it a good trim – it is a little bit wonky in places but doesn’t look too bad if you don’t look too closely!
Day 144 – I am grateful for the cupcake decorating kit dropped off by Halo Children’s Foundation as this month’s activity for the children. Thank you, Halo, Sophie had fun decorating (and eating!) her cupcakes.