At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding something to be grateful for each day isn’t about trying to give the impression that life is perfect and wonderful. It isn’t. Those little moments of gratitude can be hard to find at times; particularly after my eldest daughter Jessica died in April 2018. Some days, I struggle to find my grateful moment; some days I just feel broken and bruised. But even when it has been hard to do, I have still managed to find something. Even if it is something small, and silly, and trivial.
Jessica was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 12 – I am grateful for Sophie’s friend who was baptised at our church today. This is a little girl who has taken it upon herself to look out for Sophie at Girls’ Brigade ever since Jessica died, trying to be a substitute big sister to her (being just a couple of months younger than Jessica). I am grateful for her kind and caring nature, the friendship that she and Sophie share, and honoured to have been asked to be one of her godmothers.
Day 13 – I am grateful for fun making puppets and watching Sophie using them to tell the story of the Three Little Pigs.
Day 14 – I am grateful that Thomas went off to sleep early so I could sit with Sophie and hold her hand for a while at bedtime.
Day 15 – I am grateful for a walk around the park after school.
Day 16 – I am grateful for the beautiful quilt that one of my talented friends made for Thomas.
Day 17 – I am grateful for my new rolling pin that my in-laws gave me for Christmas.
Day 18 – I am grateful that our little kitchen science attempt to make ‘frost’ patterns on the windows worked quite well.