At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding little things to be grateful for isn’t always easy, especially when living through scary and uncertain times. I have found though that trying to find something, however small and trivial, to be grateful for has helped me through some of the hardest days of my life.
My eldest daughter Jessica, who died in April 2018, was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 131 – I am grateful for a virtual church parade service – so lovely to see so many members of our Boys’ and Girls’ Brigades taking part.
Day 132 – I am grateful for wipes and washing powder!
Day 133 – I am grateful for being able to get out for a nice long walk all by myself.
Day 134 – I am grateful for this lovely print that one of my friends sent me for my birthday. I have a little robin in my garden and I always think of Jessica when he hops over to say hello to me.
Day 135 – I am grateful to be able to visit Jessica’s forever bed again.
Day 136 – I am grateful that drawing pictures and writing cards helps Sophie with missing friends and family.
Day 137 – I am grateful for scooter rides with Sophie.