At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding something to be grateful for each day isn’t about trying to give the impression that life is perfect and wonderful. It isn’t. Those little moments of gratitude can be hard to find at times; particularly after my eldest daughter Jessica died in April 2018. Some days, I struggle to find my grateful moment; some days I just feel broken and bruised. But even when it has been hard to do, I have still managed to find something. Even if it is something small, and silly, and trivial.
Jessica was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 68 – I am grateful for a fun afternoon at Milestones museum.
Day 69 – I am grateful for my wonderful mum and for being able to surprise her with a visit on her birthday.
Day 70 – I am grateful for adorable new dungarees for Thomas from Nanny.
Day 71 – I am grateful for paper and pencils. So lovely to see how much Thomas enjoys mark-making.
Day 72 – I am grateful for Sophie’s joy at moving up another reading level on to gold books.
Day 73 – I am grateful that the evenings are getting lighter.
Day 74 – I am grateful that getting the 12-18 months clothes down from the loft for Thomas meant we finally got around to putting the Christmas decorations up there and now have a bit more space in the spare room again.