Since 2016, I have taken part in a daily gratitude challenge, sharing a photo of one thing I am thankful for each day on Instagram. There have been days when finding little things to be grateful for has been very easy to do and others when it has been incredibly hard. Life as a bereaved parent is quite a rollercoaster at times. There have been many moments when I don’t feel grateful for anything at all – just broken and bruised. However, looking for those little moments has helped me even on the darkest of days. Hard though it may be at times, I have always managed to find something to be thankful for.
My eldest daughter Jessica was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. I continue with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
If you would like to join me in a daily gratitude challenge for 2019, do feel free to use the hashtag #LHBL365daysofgratitude2019 on Instagram so I can find your posts there.
Day 188 – I am grateful that Thomas is able to enjoy more and more things at the park now.
Day 189 – I am grateful that I can see Sophie’s face again after getting her fringe cut!
Day 190 – I am grateful for the rare sight of a clear dining room table!
Day 191 – I am grateful for an unexpected afternoon nap on the way back from the park.
Day 192 – I am grateful for my wonderful husband. It is ten years today since our wedding day. Our married life together has certainly been a rollercoaster ride full of wonderful highs and heartbreaking lows but we face them as a team and get through them together.
Day 193 – I am grateful for a wonderful school report for this little lady that describes her as “kind and caring and always wants everyone else to be happy.” She’s doing well academically too and I’m so very proud of her. She’s had a lovely day today – beach day at school, followed by the school disco and Girls’ and Boys’ Brigade barbecue – a day that she’s told me she wishes she could wake up and live all over again “but with Jessica there too.” If only I could grant that wish. Sweet little Sophie, never stop being the loving kind exuberant person you are. I am so proud to be your mummy.
Day 194 – I am grateful to my church friends for helping out with today’s coffee morning in aid of Little Hearts Matter in memory of my beautiful big girl. Today has been a tough one. I wish I could step into this photo and hear my girls giggling as they got soaked helping with the washing up once more. Missing my big girl so very much right now.