Tag Archives: musings

Me holding Jessica in intensive care

The mummy I might have been: how did being a heart parent change me?

When does parenthood begin? That moment when everything changes; when that person we once becomes someone new; someone whose decision-making and thoughts are changed forever. Does it begin with the birth of a new baby – when we “officially” become mummy and daddy? Or does it start further back with two little lines on a white stick?… Read more

Change - this week's word of the week

Friday Focus 20/01/17 – Making changes for the better

“If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. … We need not wait to see what others do.” (Mahatma Gandhi)


The above quote is usually shortened to “be the change you wish to see in the world.” It’s a reminder that change starts with ourselves.… Read more

Christmas – when it all gets a bit much

There is a moment every Christmas, where everything just gets a bit too much. The moment when the to-do list suddenly feels too long; when the pressure to be perfect is too intense; when the hustle and bustle of the festive season feels too overwhelming.  There is a moment when suddenly the bubble pops and Mummy snaps.… Read more

21 Questions

I love the various bloggers’ tags that pop up on blogs from time to time and reading all the different answers to the various questions posed.  They’re a fun way of finding out a little more about the bloggers behind the blog.  In the last couple of weeks, I’ve been tagged in a couple of bloggers’ tags posts – firstly by the Sunita at Lucky Things in the Sunshine Blogger Award and then by Helena at Queen of Collage in the Q&A Blogger Tag.  Thank you both for tagging me – and here are my answers to your questions.… Read more

Seeking refuge in the cocoon of childhood

Dear little girls

I watch you both sleeping, gaze at your peaceful content faces. You dream away, oblivious to the increasing craziness of the world around you.

Jessica and Sophie having a cuddle - "Seeking refuge in the cocoon of childhood"

I am afraid for you. I am afraid of this increasingly dark world in which you are growing up. Afraid of the hatred that is out there, in a world that seems to be becoming more broken by the day.… Read more

If only I could bottle the moments…

The other night, I was woken by my big girl climbing into our bed and making herself comfy between hubby and me.  As she snuggled against me and fell asleep, I gazed at her little face and my heart melted.  I wished I could capture that moment, bottle it up and keep it forever.  The warmth of her little body against me, that beautiful relaxed sleepy face, the way she was holding on to my hand.  That beautiful feeling of completeness, of knowing that everything we needed in that moment was right there.… Read more

Autumn leaves - The Friday Focus 02/10/15 - Little Hearts, Big Love

30 simple things that make my world a happier place

It’s the little things in life that can really help to put a smile on my face.  The little moments that remind me that the best things in life often are free.  Since I started doing my #366daysofgratitude project, I’ve become more aware of those simple things that help make my world a happier place.  Here are some of the little things that I love:

An autumn sunset and the text 30 simple things that make my world a happier place

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CHD from a parent’s perspective – is it wrong to share?

I read a lot of blogs from heart parents and parents of children with additional needs. Occasionally, I come across blogs and articles written from the perspective of children or adults who are living with CHD or another medical condition, or who have additional needs. Every so often, there is an article which shocks me and makes me stop and think; one in which there is harsh criticism of parents sharing their child’s story when it is not their story to share.… Read more

Now you are three

Darling Sophie

Today you are three years old.  Those three years since you were born have passed by in the blink of an eye.  No longer a baby, no longer really a toddler – you are a little girl who likes to be as independent as possible.  “I can do it myself!” is a phrase I hear frequently – and you are determined to at least give it a try even if you sometimes do end up asking “can you help me, Mummy?”  I love your determination and your willingness to try.… Read more

A moment when I am just mummy and nothing more

There are days when motherhood feels overwhelming. Days when the to-do list seems too long and the time too short.  Days when I feel like I am trying to juggle too many balls in the air.  Days when tempers flare too easily; when the small irritations feel like last straws.  Days when it feels like the simplest of tasks takes forever to accomplish and the demands of small children feel relentless.… Read more