It’s been one of those weeks of feeling a little bit tired, a little bit sluggish and a little bit slow. After last week’s focus on decluttering, I have lost momentum slightly and struggled to regain focus. Hopefully I’ll feel a bit more energised next week, although there have been benefits to having a slow week too. I’ve enjoyed those slow moments of stopping to look at a pretty sunrise, cuddling up on the sofa with the girls and reading stories and having time to relax.
Jessica has seemed a little slower lately too. Since being back at preschool, she is more tired in the afternoons. I have started putting the second seat for our buggy in the car again, having not used it for ages as she has started to ask me if she can go in the buggy when out and about. She was in the buggy when we were out shopping last week and someone asked me how old she was. When I told them she was four, they raised their eyebrows and said “Oh!” in a very disapproving voice. We were in a lift at the time and as the lift doors had opened for our floor at this point, I just walked away. I could have explained that she has a heart condition, but quite frankly, I don’t see why I should have to justify my parenting choices to a complete stranger and as you can imagine, I was fuming about it!
Preschool have also noticed that she is a little less active – they restricted her outdoor time on Wednesday as she just wanted to sit and watch the other children and they were worried that she was getting cold. I think it is time to swap her autumn coat for her winter one so she can still enjoy being outside, even if she doesn’t want to be too active.
It is always a concern when Jessica seems more tired than usual as it could be an indication that her heart is not working as well as it was. Thankfully we had the community nurse visit yesterday and Jessica’s oxygen saturations are still around 80 which is normal for her, and very reassuring for me.
Things I have loved this week:
- Hubby coming back home and the joy on Jessica’s face when he woke her up to give her her night-time meds after arriving home – she opened her eyes sleepily and then suddenly woke up with a huge smile when she realise it was Daddy! Sophie, on the other hand, just said “hello, Daddy” when she woke up in the morning just as if Daddy had never been away!
- A morning catching up with a friend over coffee at the garden centre and taking the girls to see the fish.
- Watching Sophie having fun splashing in puddles.
- Getting the garden cleared out a little more – so good to see all four corners of the fence and to clear the ground around the roses. Still a lot left to do but it’s getting there slowly.
- Sophie watching Strictly intently and trying to mimic some of the dance moves. She particularly enjoyed Peter Andre’s quickstep and tried to copy Katie Dereham’s tango face which was hilarious.
- Visiting the local infant school which Jessica will hopefully be going to in September and seeing how much Jessica enjoyed her visit there. The headteacher seemed really nice and although we only talked briefly about Jessica’s heart, I felt reassured that the school will make sure they are well informed about her needs.