Eight years ago today, we were in Oxford for the in-utero heart surgery that gave Jessica a chance of life. A milestone moment at the start of our journey as a family. A miracle that helped to give us six and a half amazing years with our beautiful girl. What a journey we have… Read More
May is my birthday month. This year is a big birthday year for me as I turned forty. My birthday celebrations were spread out over a week, starting with a joint birthday party with my twin sister and her best friend and finishing with a birthday barbecue to celebrate with some of my friends who… Read More
April has certainly been a tough month for us with the first anniversary of Jessica’s death. I still can’t quite believe that we have managed to survive a year without our beautiful big girl. Sometimes people comment that they don’t know how we manage to keep going. The answer is that we keep going because… Read More
This time last year we were heading off on our very last family holiday with Jessica. We’d decided to go to the Isle of Wight so we could have a quiet holiday, knowing that Jessica was struggling with energy levels. We spent a week in a little bubble – taking things easy, enjoying time together.… Read More
It has been ten and a half months since Jessica died. The memories from this time last year are now an ever-increasing series of “last times” – last birthday party, last time seeing Nanny, last heart check-up. As we hurtle towards the anniversary we dread, the storm of grief has been picking up once more.… Read More
Taking a photo of all of us together each month has become routine now. Even now that our family is forever incomplete, it is still important to me to take that monthly photo. I always carry a photo of Jessica in my rucksack so that we can include her in the photo if an opportunity… Read More
For the last few New Years, my wish at the start of the year was always the same: to end it with my family still complete. As we saw in the start of 2018, I was full of hope that my wish would be granted once again. Jessica was the other side of her Fontan… Read More
