I sit on the sofa with a sleeping baby in my arms and a cup of tea next to me. For a moment, I think I should put him down. My to-do list is a long one at this time of year. I think of the jobs I should be getting on with but then… Read More
I found it hard to find the right Christmas card for hubby this year. Most of the ones in the shops had sentiments looking forward to a “magical Christmas” or “the best Christmas ever” or “making happy memories” and other similar thoughts. Trying to find one that expressed what I wanted to say – that… Read More
I shared a post recently on my personal Facebook feed to help family and friends with Christmas cards this year. A reminder that it was okay to include Jessica’s name. That phrases such as “and remembering…” or “never forgetting…” do not offend a bereaved parent, but are welcomed. Jessica may no longer be physically with… Read More
Jessica is never far from our thoughts, but we’ve been thinking and talking about her a lot over the past week. Last Friday, we had a meeting with Jessica’s cardiac consultant on Ocean Ward to discuss the findings from the post-mortem. We have now been given a more detailed report from this which is useful,… Read More
In the beginning, there was joy. Two excited big sisters. The dream of life as five. My big girl patting my tummy, giving it kisses. Resting her head on my bump, telling me that you were kicking her. Excitement, anticipation, joy. Then utter desolation. Joy turned to sorrow. Excitement became numbness. You moved,… Read More
October is one of hubby’s busiest months for events and family moments can be few and far between. I am used to flying solo although it can feel very lonely at times. I’ve learned though to make the most of the family moments when I can get them in the busy times. It also means… Read More
Last weekend, several of Jessica’s uncles and her cousins ran in the Great South Run to raise money for Little Hearts Matter in memory of Jessica. My brother Adrian and my sister’s ex-partner Pete had both run before but for my other brother Peter and my nephews Jamie and Lee, it was their first time… Read More