Life has felt like an uphill struggle lately. I’m tired and run-down having spent most of half-term suffering from flu and this week getting over it. Grief has been hitting very hard lately as we get closer and closer to the first anniversary of Jessica’s death. Memories of this time last year are now becoming… Read More
Last year, Jessica managed her longest post-surgery walk when we went looking for signs of spring at a nearby meadow and spotted snowdrops. Life felt good; we were the other side of heart surgery; spring was on the way and we were starting to dare to look ahead a little. One year on and how… Read More
It has been ten and a half months since Jessica died. The memories from this time last year are now an ever-increasing series of “last times” – last birthday party, last time seeing Nanny, last heart check-up. As we hurtle towards the anniversary we dread, the storm of grief has been picking up once more.… Read More
One of my favourite quotes as a heart parent was this one: “Having a child with a life-threatening condition changes you. It brings out strength in you that you never knew you had, it makes you appreciate the little things in life, it makes you fear that every memory you make together may be your… Read More
Nearly every week on my blog, I share a post called “The Friday Focus”. It’s a post where I sum up the past week in one word and reflect on the things that made me smile. I see a lot of posts on social media about choosing a word for the year. Something that… Read More
Two plus one equals three. My five-year-old could tell you that. It’s a simple sum, two plus one. But when you’re a mum to “two plus one” somehow that sum doesn’t always seem to add up right. Two plus one equals three, right? I am a mum of three. It is a title that… Read More
For the last few New Years, my wish at the start of the year was always the same: to end it with my family still complete. As we saw in the start of 2018, I was full of hope that my wish would be granted once again. Jessica was the other side of her Fontan… Read More