This week has been a struggle. The days feel both too long and too short. Too long because it feels like we’re wading through treacle most of the time; and too short to fit in all the things that need to be done. Something has to give. At the moment it feels like it’s mostly sleep and sanity.
Home-schooling has been tough this week. We’ve tried to juggle the schedule around to make it more bearable, moving the worst subjects (English and Topic) to the morning to get them out of the way. We’re 17 lessons in to dissecting the story of the little bird and the forest fire, dealing with the delights of fronted adverbials and I’m reminded of how English lessons at school made me loathe so many books and poems purely because of how long we spent picking them to pieces.
Bedtime has been a bit of a battle and Thomas has been waking very early this week. Some nights there aren’t enough hours in between Sophie finally going to sleep and Thomas getting up to give me a full night’s sleep, even assuming I’m not woken up multiple times (now that would be nice!) Hubby is working into the early hours to get his work done. Mine is mostly going to have to wait for the weekend because I have a new system I need to get my head around requiring uninterrupted time to focus on it and a clear head, and right now I can have one or other but not both. Thankfully it is something I can put off until then.
Breathe. It will get better. I have to keep telling myself that. We’ve just got to take it one moment at a time, get through as best we can, try and focus on the essentials. There have been a lot of tears this week. It helps to vent though. I know we’re not alone in the struggles; that there are lot of other people feeling this way too. There is light at the end of the tunnel, even if we can’t always see it. The changes to our home-schooling schedule have made it easier and hubby and I are doing our best to give each other opportunities for down-time and rest.
The snow provided some welcome joy this week. It was so lovely to see the children having fun in the snow and to have some excitement to break the monotony of lockdown life. A reminder of how important it is to get outside and have fun together. Doing my daily gratitude posts also help. Even when it is difficult to find the silver linings, there is always something there to be grateful for.
What I’ve been grateful for this week:
- Day 22 – I am grateful to be done with remote learning for the week.
- Day 23 – I am grateful for outdoor messy play with home-made fake snow. Hoping that we might get some of the real thing tomorrow!
- Day 24 – I am grateful for snow!
- Day 25 – I am grateful that it was cold enough for us to try making frozen bubbles this morning.
- Day 26 – I am grateful for some therapeutic doodling.
- Day 27 – I am grateful that Thomas had a nap and I was able to get a quick snooze in too!
- Day 28 – I am grateful for outdoor clothes that are up to the delights of sliding down muddy slopes!
Other things that have made me smile this week:
- Sophie making herself a reading den in the dining room.
- A beautiful sunrise just before the snow started falling.
- Thomas tucking into haggis on Burns Night. I’m normally the only one who will eat it!