This week has certainly seen a massive shift in terms of responding to the coronavirus pandemic and life as we know it has changed so much in just one week. What lies ahead feels very unknown and scary; all the familiar things disappearing from everyday life. No longer being able to meet a friend for coffee, no playdates, no toddler groups, no church and, after tomorrow, no school for Sophie and possibly not returning until September.
I’ve been feeling emotional lately about being on the threshold of Sophie overtaking Jessica and the last of the shared experiences. This half-term before the Easter holidays being the last one Jessica did in Year 1. She never got to finish the year and it’s very weird and horrible to think that perhaps neither of my girls will have a summer term in Year 1.
I’ve been trying to stay positive and part of me likes the idea of getting to home-school Sophie just as I did with Jessica. But I am struggling too with the uncertainty, the fear of what the coming weeks might bring and how different the world may look on the other side of all of this. It’s hard knowing that I can’t just go and visit my mum and my family as I would normally when Sophie is off school, and I don’t know when I will be able to go and see them. I’m so glad that I did go and surprise my mum last week though with a birthday visit.
It has been encouraging to see how so many people I know are pulling together and looking out for each other right now though. Making sure they keep in contact; checking in regularly and making sure people are okay and have the things they need. We’re all just trying to get through this as best we can.
Things that have made me smile this week
- Watching Sophie taking part in a dramatised reading of the parable of the Good Samaritan at the Girls’ Brigade District Service.
- Taking the children to the park and realising how very special those ordinary moments are.
- Getting the 12-18 month clothes down from the loft for Thomas and finally getting around to putting the Christmas decorations up in the loft.
- Seeing the forget-me-nots appearing in the garden around the Pretty Jessica roses. They first appeared last year on the day before Mother’s Day and I think of them as being my flowers sent by Jessica.
- Watching Sophie and Thomas playing together with the Duplo train set.
- Thomas giving the carving of Jessica at her forever bed cuddles and kisses, and listening to him singing to it.
- Thomas singing ‘Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star’ complete with actions.
- Being able to still do baby French with Thomas through online classes.
- A surprise parcel in the post for Sophie and Thomas with a couple of belated Christmas presents inside.