The last week has certainly been an eventful and emotional one. Last Friday, the winners of this year’s BiBs awards were announced on Twitter. I was so chuffed to be named as the Inspire category winner for this year. Thank you so much to everyone who voted for me. I also had a lovely comment on my blog that day from another bereaved mum who had been awake in the early hours of the morning looking for someone else who understood how she felt. I have been that mum looking online, trying to feel less alone, and I’m glad that by sharing our story, I have been able to help someone else in that way.
The weekend was a very tough one for us as it marked six months since Jessica died. It is hard to believe that half a year has passed by without our little girl but at the same time it feels like a lifetime too. On Saturday, we went on a memorial walk at the National Memorial Arboretum with other bereaved heart parents. It felt an appropriate way to spend the half-anniversary of Jessica’s last day of life having a day focused on reflecting and remembering her.
Yesterday, we received a letter from St Peter’s hospital informing us that they are carrying out an investigation into the care Jessica received shortly before her death. This process is expected to take about four months. One of the many questions that has gone around my head since Jessica died is whether she would still be here had she not been discharged that day. Perhaps this is a question which may now be answered. The findings from the investigation won’t bring Jessica back of course, but perhaps there are improvements in care which could be made as a result.
Today is another emotional day. It would have been my dad’s 85th birthday today. It is also my father-in-law’s birthday. I like to think that my dad is up there looking after Jessica for me.
This weekend my brothers and nephews are running the Great South Run in memory of Jessica and fundraising for Little Hearts Matter. Sophie, Thomas and I will be going down to cheer them on. I am sure it will be another emotional day for us.
Things that have made me smile this week
- Catching up with a friend over a pot of tea.
- Being sent a drawing that my great-niece did which included a picture of Jessica.
- A friend giving me some heart shaped pebbles as she knew the six-month milestone of losing Jessica was coming up.
- Seeing Sophie and her friend officially be enrolled in Girls’ Brigade.
- Reading with Sophie at bedtime.
- Taking a walk around Denham Country Park with Thomas.
- Getting to grips with a new way of wrapping Thomas in the sling.
- Putting Sophie and Thomas in co-ordinating Toy Story sleepwear.
Linking up with Raisie Bay for #WotW.