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Category Archives: Child loss

A mum of two plus one

28/01/201930/01/2019
Sophie cuddling Thomas with Jessica looking on from a photo on her photo blanket

Two plus one equals three. My five-year-old could tell you that. It’s a simple sum, two plus one. But when you’re a mum to “two plus one” somehow that sum doesn’t always seem to add up right.   Two plus one equals three, right? I am a mum of three. It is a title that… Read More

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Grief and life after Jessica: Stillness in the storm

20/12/201820/12/2018
A drawing of me sitting on the sofa holding Thomas with angel Jessica behind me

I sit on the sofa with a sleeping baby in my arms and a cup of tea next to me. For a moment, I think I should put him down. My to-do list is a long one at this time of year. I think of the jobs I should be getting on with but then… Read More

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Grief and life after Jessica: Say her name

03/12/201802/12/2018
Jessica on a rocking black swan

I shared a post recently on my personal Facebook feed to help family and friends with Christmas cards this year. A reminder that it was okay to include Jessica’s name. That phrases such as “and remembering…” or “never forgetting…” do not offend a bereaved parent, but are welcomed. Jessica may no longer be physically with… Read More

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Complicated emotions: loving my rainbow baby

20/11/201821/11/2018
Me cuddling Thomas at his christening

In the beginning, there was joy. Two excited big sisters. The dream of life as five. My big girl patting my tummy, giving it kisses. Resting her head on my bump, telling me that you were kicking her. Excitement, anticipation, joy.   Then utter desolation.   Joy turned to sorrow. Excitement became numbness. You moved,… Read More

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Grief and life after Jessica: Six months on

17/10/201816/10/2018

Six months. Six months since the last time I cuddled my big girl; the last time I looked into her beautiful eyes. How can six months have passed by already, how did I manage to survive six months without her? And yet I have and will continue to do so. One moment at a time,… Read More

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Grief and life after Jessica: “New” memories – a precious gift

11/10/201810/10/2018
A photo of Jessica holding a toy while dressed in a cat outfit

One of the many things that broke my heart when Jessica died was sorting through and editing photos of her, knowing that there would be no more new ones to take. No new memories to make together, no new moments to experience. Yet while of course there are no new memories to make with her,… Read More

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Grief and life after Jessica: “No, I have three children.”

02/10/201802/10/2018
Sophie with Thomas with Jessica's cushion in the middle

I had a conversation with an acquaintance recently, triggered by a discussion about whether I was planning any more children. The conversation went something like this:   Her: “Well, two children is enough.” Me: “Three.” Her: “Oh yes, I forgot about Jessica.” (pause) “Well, two really. Nice to have one of each.” Me: “No, not… Read More

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I'm Louise, mummy of three - Jessica, forever six, who was born with half a heart and lives on in mine; and heart-healthy Sophie (born 2013) and Thomas (born 2018). I blog about living with grief after child loss, crafts, days out and the little moments of family life.

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