Today is a milestone moment on our grief journey as Thomas reaches the exact age Sophie was when Jessica died. From now on, Sophie and Thomas will have had more time with each other than Sophie and Jessica had together. Like many of the other milestones that we’ve encountered since Jessica died, it’s one that… Read More
When I look at my life as a parent, it is very sharply divided into two. Life when Jessica was here with us, and life after losing Jessica. There is a huge chasm between the two lives that marks the moment Jessica died. A life before we knew the agonising pain of child loss, and… Read More
We’ve been reorganising things at home this week. It’s been partly about making room for the Christmas presents but also planning ahead with various changes that will need to happen with the house over this coming year. The Christmas decorations have been taken down and put away, although I can’t quite say the same for… Read More
Here we are at the end of another year. Christmas and New Year is a particularly difficult time for us. I think grief feels more acute at this time of year, plus it also brings back memories of Jessica being in hospital for her Fontan procedure. We saw in her last New Year on the… Read More
We’ve had some time away over Christmas having spent it at Coombe Mill again. It’s been good to have that time away and to be able to switch off and spend time together as a family. Christmas is a very mixed time for us balancing our grief at having to spend another Christmas without Jessica… Read More
I’m taking a break from the blog over the Christmas period so just wanted to wish all my readers a peaceful Christmas. Sending much love to all those who find this time of year hard. I hope the festive season will be gentle to you.
School has broken up for Christmas and I have two very excited people who are counting down the days and looking forward to Christmas Day. It’s a tough time of year – trying to keep that Christmas magic for Sophie and Thomas while also making space for Jessica and allowing time for grief. Putting up… Read More