At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding little things to be grateful for isn’t always easy, especially when living through scary and uncertain times. I have found though that trying to find something, however small and trivial, to be grateful for has helped me through some of the hardest days of my life.
My eldest daughter Jessica, who died in April 2018, was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 292 – I am grateful for finding my rehearsal bag from the concert we were rehearsing when Jessica died. In it were these drawings and a cut out of Jessica’s hands done the last Sunday that Jessica was at church, just a few days before she died. Something to treasure.
Day 293 – I am grateful for beautiful autumn colours.
Day 294 – I am grateful that the raspberry bushes are still providing us with a few raspberries here and there.
Day 295 – I am grateful for paint and time to get creative decorating a wooden box for Sophie to keep her treasures in, ready to give her next week for her birthday.
Day 296 – I am grateful for Timehop bringing me photos of Jessica and her beautiful smile nearly every day and reminding me of happy family days out.
Day 297 – I am grateful for Sophie’s excitement over a non-uniform day at school and getting to bring in sweets for her classmates as it’s her birthday during half-term.
Day 298 – I am grateful for a fun start to half-term.