At the start of 2016, inspired by a friend, I started a daily gratitude challenge – posting one thing that I was thankful for each day on Instagram. I enjoyed it so much that when I reached the end of that year, I carried on and have kept going ever since. Finding one little thing to be thankful for each day has now become part of my daily routine and I’ve loved seeing friends joining in along the way too.
Finding little things to be grateful for isn’t always easy, especially when living through scary and uncertain times. I have found though that trying to find something, however small and trivial, to be grateful for has helped me through some of the hardest days of my life.
My eldest daughter Jessica, who died in April 2018, was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. And even though having to live life without Jessica is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I will continue to look for those little things to be thankful for, and keep going with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
Here are my grateful moments from the past week:
Day 264 – I am grateful for some time on my own with Jessica this afternoon.
Day 265 – I am grateful that we’ve finished the jigsaw we were working on as a family and I can have the table back again.
Day 266 – I am grateful that we’ve been able to make the most of the sunshine over the last few days and for all the time we’ve spent out in our garden over the last few months. It’s been lovely to sit outside and work while watching the children play.
Day 267 – I am grateful for time to go exploring with Thomas.
Day 268 – I am grateful for the excitement over another expected visit from the tooth fairy.
Day 269 – I am grateful that my lovely friend has made face masks from the material taken off my bridesmaid dress so we all have matching masks for my twinny’s wedding tomorrow. I love that she also made a little heart with the remaining fabric in memory of Jessica which Sophie will carry.
Day 270 – I am grateful for a lovely new brother-in-law. Congratulations Twinny and Tony!!