This time last year we were heading off on our very last family holiday with Jessica. We’d decided to go to the Isle of Wight so we could have a quiet holiday, knowing that Jessica was struggling with energy levels. We spent a week in a little bubble – taking things easy, enjoying time together.… Read More
It has been ten and a half months since Jessica died. The memories from this time last year are now an ever-increasing series of “last times” – last birthday party, last time seeing Nanny, last heart check-up. As we hurtle towards the anniversary we dread, the storm of grief has been picking up once more.… Read More
Taking a photo of all of us together each month has become routine now. Even now that our family is forever incomplete, it is still important to me to take that monthly photo. I always carry a photo of Jessica in my rucksack so that we can include her in the photo if an opportunity… Read More
For the last few New Years, my wish at the start of the year was always the same: to end it with my family still complete. As we saw in the start of 2018, I was full of hope that my wish would be granted once again. Jessica was the other side of her Fontan… Read More
I feel like I say this at the end of every month, but it’s been an emotional month. I guess the emotional rollercoaster is now our normal in many ways; all the little milestones of family life are so very bittersweet. We started off the month with a celebration: Thomas’s christening at our church.… Read More
October is one of hubby’s busiest months for events and family moments can be few and far between. I am used to flying solo although it can feel very lonely at times. I’ve learned though to make the most of the family moments when I can get them in the busy times. It also means… Read More
Family moments have been few and far between this month. It’s been a busy one work-wise for hubby with him either being away working on events or working long hours nearer home preparing for them. I’m used to this of course, although it is different now. Different and yet so very familiar. I am back… Read More