We’ve reached that point in the year where life feels like a flurry of activity. The calendar is filling up fast, and it seems like nearly all our free time from now until Christmas is now accounted for. This week has certainly felt like been quite a busy one with various events going on. We have the school Christmas fayre this weekend, so I’ve been busy baking cakes for that, as well as also baking scones and cakes for a surprise party at Halo last weekend and our coffee morning fundraising for Little Hearts Matter tomorrow.
Thankfully hubby is now back home after a very busy couple of months. I’m hoping that things will be a little quieter on the work front as we head towards Christmas so we can enjoy a little more family time together. It has been lovely having him home to help with bedtime and to see how happy the children are to have Daddy home.
We’ve been doing some filming with Action Medical Research this week and sharing Jessica’s story to highlight the importance of some of the research that they have been funding. It made for quite an emotional day but being able to talk so freely about Jessica is such a precious gift. I do love to talk about her and it’s so hard not feeling like I can talk about her as freely as I do Sophie and Thomas sometimes.
Reliving our beautiful memories does bring so much sadness, but it also brings a lot of joy too. In those moments, I’m always reminded of the wise words of a friend of mine who is further down this road of being a bereaved parent. She told me that in the moments when my grief feels all-consuming, this is the time when Jessica is asking for my attention and that if I don’t give her that attention, she will shout louder until I do. I now think of those moments as being my time with Jessica, and when my grief is strongest, it reflects back the strength of the love I have for Jessica. Love and grief walk very much hand-in-hand.
As always, we take each moment as it comes. The festive season is such a busy time, and, in some respects, the distraction will carry us through it. I’m glad though that even with such a full calendar, there are still plenty of opportunities to draw breath and take a little time out here and there.
Things that have made me smile this week
- Having two parties in one day – a surprise party for Alia, the founder of Halo, at this month’s Halo group meeting, followed by Sophie’s friend’s birthday party.
- Watching Sophie concentrating on painting a lantern at Halo.
- Receiving a beautiful bouquet of flowers from a friend, just to let us know she was thinking of us.
- Seeing Sophie and Thomas sitting on the floor together playing with the Playmobil 123.
- Taking the children to the park on their bikes.
- Watching Sophie in her class assembly.