I’ve been feeling somewhat overwhelmed and exhausted this week. Too many balls to juggle, too many nights of not enough sleep despite trying to go to bed early, too many mornings starting well before dawn. A husband who is either away or working such crazy hours that he might as well be away. Overwhelming grief and struggling with the exhaustion of having to endure life without Jessica. And to top it all, my computer has stopped working.
And breathe. There have been occasional moments of sunshine breaking through the clouds. Catching up with family at my great-nephew’s christening at the weekend, for example, although I had a few tough moments with various grief triggers. There are still things to be grateful for, including the somewhat ancient laptop which I’m currently using until my computer is fixed.
The mask is heavy this week. Hopefully things will feel a little more bearable next week.
What I’ve been grateful for this week:
- Day 253 – I am grateful that Sophie enjoyed being back at Girls’ Brigade with her friends.
- Day 254 – I am grateful for a lovely lunch with church friends. Thomas enjoyed his ride from church into town on his godmother’s mobility scooter.
- Day 255 – I am grateful for spending time with my family at my gorgeous great-nephew’s christening.
- Day 256 – I am grateful that Sophie enjoyed being back at her performing arts class.
- Day 257 – I am grateful that the church café has reopened.
- Day 258 – I am grateful for moments of sunshine breaking through the clouds.
- Day 259 – I am grateful for being able to be back at BilinguaSing classes in person again!
Other things that have made me smile this week:
- Teaching Sophie to count to 20 in German.
- Thomas setting up his little computer next to my laptop.
Sending love and hugs. It sounds like you’ve been having a really rubbish time of it. I am glad you have managed to have some nice moments too. I hope your computer gets fixed soon. x
Thank you Kim. Hubby was planning to replace the computer so I have a new one now. Unfortunately it looks like the hard drive of the old one corrupted and we’ve not been able to retrieve all the files from it, although most of the important ones were thankfully backed up elsewhere.
It really sounds like you have had a tough week. But I’m also happy that there have been rays of sunshine. I encourage you to not give up but to look out for the little things which will spark some happiness. Others looking on might well be learning from you how to deal with difficult circumstances. That’s so cute of Thomas to want to set up his ‘office’ space beside yours. And thankfully your daughter is picking back up with her normal routines. The singing sounds such a nice way to pass the days away too. Sending big hugs for a more cheerful week ahead and even if it’s not all cheery, grace to see you through the challenges. Keep smiling.
Jo and Leisa
Thank you both. I do keep trying to look for the little moments of happiness even when it is hard to do so, and it does help.
I definitely know where you are coming from as my husband often travels for work and it makes it such a hard tiring week being Mum and Dad!
I am glad you have had lots to be grateful for and have managed to catch up with your friends x
Thank you, I’m mostly used to flying solo when my husband is away but it is harder work.
Those overwhelming weeks always get you down, but keeping looking out for things to be grateful for always helps. I love you photos, and blessings to your little great nephew x
Thank you Anne, it does help to keep trying to find a small positive in each day even if it doesn’t always feel easy to do so.
Hope you get the computer fixed, and that next week is a better one. Love Thomas’ little mini me computer moment.
Thanks Emma. Computer is up and running again and this week has been better so far.
Sounds like there have been some positives in this week, like the face to face contact you’re now having with the church. Love Thomas setting up his laptop next to yours. Hope your computer is fixed soon.
Thank you. It was sweet having Thomas set up his laptop next to mine. Thankfully I have a working computer again now.
I am sorry to hear that you are struggling and hope that your husband is around a bit more this week. Spending time with family at your great-nephew’s christening sounds wonderful
Thank you, it is easier when he’s around a bit more!
Sending love and hugs it sounds like a very tough week for you. I really hope the next week is kinder to you. Glad that you still had good moments though and love the photo of Thomas working next to you.
Thanks Clare. It was sweet to have him set up his little computer next to mine.
Oh dear, I’m sorry to hear that things have been overwhelming this week but glad you could still find things to focus on in a positive light. My laptop keeps playing up and I’m dreading my hubby telling me it’s time for a new one… #project365
Thanks Laura. Hope your laptop hangs in there for a while longer.
Sorry to hear you have been feeling overwhelmed. Hope the next week was better.
Thank you, it’s getting better again now.
Sorry to hear you had a stressful week, when you are feeling overwhelmed. Sending big hugs.
Having little snippets of joy and happiness is important, glad that you were able to see your friends, and hope they brought you some comfort. Spending time with your family at the christening sounds lovely.
Thank you, the little moments of looking for joy and happiness do help make things feel a little easier.
So sorry you had such an overwhelming week. Your hubby works so hard and the juggle is real. I couldn’t do my job without Darren’s support. I hope the weeks got easier for you and your computer is fixed #WotW
Thank you, it is hard sometimes trying to juggle everything. Computer is back up and working now thankfully!