I’m not sure what result we’ll be waking up to when this post goes live. What I do know is that there seems to be real fear on both sides of the political divide for whatever the election will bring. It’s both worrying and depressing that there is so much fear surrounding British politics at the moment. My reaction to this kinds of situations where the future feels scary and uncertain remains the same: to hold my children a little tighter, and cling to the hope that whatever the result, it won’t be as bad as those on the opposing side tell us it will be. That somehow it will all work out.
I’m reminding myself once more that I am just one small person. I have a vote and a voice, and even though it is a very small voice, it is important that I use it. I cannot change the world, but I can try and make my own little corner of it a better place. And no matter what the result, there are Christmas presents to be wrapped, decorations still to go up (we really must get around to putting the tree up in the next few days!) and preparations for the festive season still to be done. And so far, I’m managing not to get myself too stressed out about Christmas. I’ve been up and down, missing Jessica, but just letting the waves of grief take me where they will and allowing myself to feel what I need to feel. Taking the festive season one moment at a time.
Things that have made me smile this week
- Going to the Christmas tree festival with Sophie’s school.
- Doing the flower arrangement for church.
- Going to the Tutankhamun exhibition in London.
- Making toilet roll snowmen with Sophie.
- Getting creative and making some personalised Christmas presents.
- Going on a narrowboat trip to visit Santa.
- Being told by hubby that he isn’t going away on a work trip next week after all – yay!
- Watching Sophie and Thomas having fun doing dance club at Halo.
- Going out on my own for two Christmas meals in two days.
- Watching Sophie in her Christmas concert at school.