The run-up to Easter and the start of the school holidays are full of reminders of those last weeks with Jessica. This time three years ago we were on what would turn out to be our last family holiday with her. She wasn’t well that week and while there were happy moments when she enjoyed going out and doing things, there were a lot of moments of worry and the memories of that holiday are still quite painful in many ways. As you can imagine, emotionally this has been a very tough week.
It’s been a busy week for me too with being involved in the various online activities that our church is doing for Holy Week. A week of making sure that there are reminders on my phone for all the things that needed to be done so I didn’t forget to do them! There was a somewhat embarrassing moment during the Maundy Thursday Zoom service when Sophie was shouting something rather inappropriate to Thomas while I was trying to lead prayers. A reminder that children and Zoom meetings can be a fun combination at times! Thankfully my husband edited it out of the recording!
We’ve had a couple of visits from the Easter bunny thanks to a couple of friends and family members dropping off Easter gifts for the children. What has been particular lovely is that Jessica has been included too with nearly all of them – a mention in the cards, a little bouquet of daffodils or roses for her vase. Reminders that Jessica is still loved and remembered, and that means so very much.
What I’ve been grateful for this week:
- Day 85 – I am grateful that the pictures and audio recordings for next week’s Playmobil Bible readings are all done ready to put the videos together.
- Day 86 – I am grateful for getting out for a family walk together.
- Day 87 – I am grateful for cheese and bacon scones eaten still warm from the oven.
- Day 88 – I am grateful for Sophie being helpful. This morning, she made both herself and Thomas breakfast, put Thomas in his high chair with his bib on and made sure he had everything he needed. I’d just popped upstairs to get dressed before doing breakfast but when I came downstairs they were both already having theirs!
- Day 89 – I am grateful for a lovely day spent outside in the garden and eating dinner outside for the first time this year.
- Day 90 – I am grateful for little moments watching how Thomas absorbs information while playing. His latest favourite thing is playing with the magnetic letters and putting the letters together. He put this sequence – “All Paws on Deck!” – together all by himself (the I at the end is meant to be an exclamation mark). It’s a phrase from his big Paw Patrol puzzle which he’s put together so many times he’s memorised the sequence of letters in that phrase. Clever boy!
- Day 91 – I am grateful for being able to give blood and forever grateful to those whose blood helped Jessica recover from her heart surgeries so that we got to have those six and a half wonderful years with her.
Other things that have made me smile this week:
- Sophie’s nature Easter egg that she made with Girls’ Brigade.
- Sophie being able to wear summer dresses for school. At least she’s been able to wear them this year.
- Watching the children having fun playing with the sand tray in the sunshine out in the garden. We even got the paddling pool out on Tuesday which I don’t think we’ve ever done in March before.
- Seeing the daffodils, tulips and forget-me-nots in the garden and planting flower seeds which will hopefully give us some summer blooms.
- Spotting this fabulous knitted postbox topper when I went to give blood.