My favourite quote

My husband and I held each other tightly as we sobbed together in the hospital chapel, our world having fallen apart just moments earlier when we had been told that our unborn baby girl was unlikely to be suitable for surgery and would probably only live a few hours at best. In the midst of heartbreak and despair, one thought stood out – “God is bigger than this”. I clung to it, that moment of faith that told me that somehow, even though the road ahead was dark and scary, somehow God would give me the strength to endure what must be endured. Looking around at the teddies lining the walls, I knew that I was not alone, that countless other parents before us had sat in these very seats and cried and prayed desperately for their own children, or grieved for them. We prayed desperately for a miracle that day.

We were blessed with that miracle – the offer of pioneering fetal surgery that came a couple of weeks later and helped give our baby girl the chance to survive. Throughout my pregnancy, there were many, many moments of fearfulness for the future and many tears.   Somehow though, I found an inner strength that I never knew existed and with it, came joy. I can honestly say that my pregnancy with Jessica was one of the most joyful times of my whole life, despite the heartache and the fear. We enjoyed every moment of it, made the most of it in case it ended up being all the time we would have with her.

My favourite quote - Little Hearts, Big Love

That verse from Philippians helped sustain me many times during my pregnancy and in the days after her birth, keeping us going through her various heart surgeries, the rollercoaster rides in PICU and the days on the cardiac ward. It sustains me still, knowing that there are still difficult times ahead, more surgery and a future that is still uncertain and scary. I still make the most of every moment and live in the now, not knowing what tomorrow will bring but I know that God has blessed us and sustained us so far and He will continue to do so.

Act 29

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12 thoughts on “My favourite quote

  1. What a sad AND uplifting story! (hope that makes sense) Thank you for sharing. God is bigger than all of it, isn’t He? It’s so hard for us to remember that.

  2. A story of hope…
    Was good to read.
    I like that you asked God for strength.
    I don’t know where I stand with God. I am not an atheist, of that much I am certain but I think that people put unrealistic expectations on ‘God’. They pray for miracles and all to often, it’s not possible. Then they blame God when things go wrong. I don’t get that…
    Praying for strength is what I’d do.
    Lovely post. X

    1. Thank you – I agree that people can put unrealistic expectations on God and expect Him to be a magician and when our prayers aren’t answered in the way we think they should be, think He isn’t listening. I know how very lucky I was that we were given that glimmer of hope and our little girl is still here today but there have been many moments when things looked very dark and our faith helped to give us strength to get through them.

  3. Amazing how a quote could pull you through so much in such a difficult time. A post full of hope and love wonderful xx

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